I'm a genius!!

I was reading the entry some days ago in which I was in the mood of "Oh long weekend is sOoOoOo nice".
And I realise I'm gonna work on 7th January, Saturday when I was flipping through my organiser.

And I will get day-off on 9th, the subsequent Monday. And 10th itself is Hari Raya Haji. That means for that week I would have 3 days off from 8th to 10th.

Oh my god I'm a genius. And I swear that I didn't think about that when Miss Ma asked me about the schedule for January.

I'm so proud of myself. ;)

Media power.

The papers on last week reported on the traffic situation at Causeway. Bad. And so as the news on TV. Oh so everybody thought that for the long weekend it's gonna be so heavy traffic travel, whether to or fro, JB. Okie, Malaysia.

By the way, I glanced through this signboard somewhere at the underpass of JB after the Malaysia checkpoint. (Sorry no picture.) And it says:
"Selamat datang ke Bandaraya Sejahtera"

Correct me if I'm wrong. But does it mean "Welcome to the City of Peace"?

Oh or is it suppose to be some slogan N years back?

Anyway, the media reported about the traffic situition at the Causeway and everyone so paranoid about that. But as a matter of fact it was so clear you don't believe it.

And here am I back to Singapore at this time of 3.15pm not knowing what the hell I'm doing here, back to here so damn early.

I should have eat some "zhi bao ji" before I come back.

un-Chrismassy mood

I have to admit that compare to previous years I'm not really in Chrismassy mood (anymore) 'coz I'm not a Christian. Ok previously I was 'coz Christmas in Singapore is so different. People take it so seriously whether christian or non-christian.

But for this year all I care is the long weekend.

*Wick smile*

I'm sorry Santa please forgive me. Hahaha is there really Santa?

WTF?

Enough is enough.

I really had enough with those people-- When you ask for their opinion, they said "Anything", but they DON'T really mean that.

What they really mean is "Anything, like... [insert personal preference here]"

Except they omitted the last part.

Hello. People can't read your mind. And most people ain't so free to actually go and guess what's on your mind. It's not like I'm having a crush on you ok?!

Just say out what is really on your mind when people asked. They won't feel offend. In fact, they will feel so glad you don't believe it.

And this is it. No more outing organize by me. Thank you everyone.

Quite long time never update. Not busy lar. Just being lazy. =D I like being lazy. and carefree. It feels nice.

I'm now like my job more. Yeah previously not that like this job. But somehow or rather now can adapt more. And to accept what people always say: FATE. Erm it's the the nature of job I'm handling. More info and insider-story? Contact me personally. Hehee.

Think that's for today. I'm a bit worry that my colleagues will see this.

Oh yeah, Happy Birthday horz ~Jie. Miss ya*

Grrrrrrrrrr.......

My tummy has been aching since noon. I've eaten po kai wan but it ain't getting better. Darn. Think I better don't go for the meet-up with beh and zz and a-jia and hoe later. Sianz.

Think from the other side! Yesterday burned a big whole in wallet already. No harm staying at home la k. Next week is rather hectic also. ;)

I like being busy nowadays. It keeps me moving. And it feels good. Now my aim is to get motivate and start exercise. Have been lazy for like.. months? Damn I could see the chocolate bar lying in fron of me on my desk mocking at me.

Tomorrow is a brand new week!! Things will turn better!! I don't care and I just believe in it. That's it. ;)

Little world of MY own

Went out with Denise today. We are not those friends who must meet very now and then, but we are close friend. Close enough to share each others' burden and secrets. And yea she's single like me also. If not who else you think that would be available during the weekend? Apparently not those already got attached.

Denise is usually outgoing. And friendly. And nice to everyone. Oh yea she could be mean to those guy who she thinks are a bit "idiotic". She always tell me that being outgoing is imperative la, practice on people you meet la, smile, and say hello and ask 'em how they're doing la, and bla bla.

But I'm just being low profile. Okay you can say that I'm shy. But I'm happy to be in just the little world of MY own.

With no disturbance. ;)

Departure

Maybe the word "departure" is too hard a word to use 'coz it's not the end of the world. And all she did is to leave the work place she dislikes so much.

I would hate that as well, if I'm in her shoe.

Sumi finally decided to leave her current job, in which her lab was just next to mine. Almost all of us who did our orientation together with her, after getting know her more, know that she's not going to stay on at this job for long.

And we are right. She stayed for only 1 month and 1 week.

It's kindda strange for me to feel like someone is indeed a close friend to me for only this short period. And Sumi is definitely one of them. There are too many times that we share very same view on some issues that we blurted out the very same words at the very same time (except when it comes to her "sweet guy". Urgh.). Hmm weird enough. And she's Indian. As of, my English a bit cannot make it lehz. Weird right.

She says it's because we are both Cancerian. Funny. I never know she's so into horoscope given her characters.

I know I'm gonna miss her. Now there are nobody to chit-chat and ha-la with while I need to wait for the bloody 10 minutes centrifugation time.

L.A.T.E

Today is the very first time in which I'm the last one to leave in the lab. Whole lab. Can't imagine huh? 'Coz I'm always so damn impatient in almost everything I do. Hmm correction. Ok being late is one of the bad habit I'm working on k. ;) I do hope that I can pass my probation here. Peacefully.

And now I'm waiting for the centrifuge to finally finish spinning. Ghee I hate centrifuge. It has funny smell most of the time. and each centrifugation takes a good 10 minutes. Gee, What the hell I'm suppose to do in this 10 min? I'll be so frustrated if I need to take off my glove, do my things, and later wear glove again. Oh yeah I hate the glove also.

Talking about that, HBao told me that methanol actually can go through glove and evaporate on our skin. Goodness. No wonder I keep thinking that my hands are getting rough. Think I'll need SKII soon. For my hands. Shit.

Tired. Late. And hungry.

Rants

Looking back one of the previous posts in my previous blog and I saw this:

"Damn it! I wonder will he try to break the ice? Shit. I’ve been buying things from Cold Storage HV branch. At this rate going, I’ll soon be very broke indeed! Hmph!"

Was written sometimes back in Jun/Jul/Aug (Sorry! My sense of timing is sucks.) Then again now working full time and quit SSTei already so I don't shop at Cold Storage HV that often now. But I think I will remember this cashier guy ba. Of course not-daring enough to say for the rest of my life la. Then again it was he who make me feel like going-to-work-also-not-bad-what, although it's only for like.. 10 seconds? wahahah how come I sound like little innocent girl having crush on someone.. Well I did.. Well I didn't. It doesn't matter anymore.

I think he did notice me back then. But he quit already way before I quit SSTei. Ha funny. I shall not talk about this anymore in the future.

Bless you cashier guy.

聪明反被聪明误版 << 国王的新衣>>

P国王终于穿上了他那件话说只有聪明人才看得见的新衣，在大街上游行。人民"看"了国王的新衣后，不但没有人取笑他，反而称赞国王穿衣大方得体，非常好看，因为人民都认为他们自己是聪明的。从此以后，在P国里大量出售了国王商标的 "只有聪明人才看得见" 的隐形衣服。

自从隐形衣服在市场上大量出售后，人民纷纷都把隐形衣穿上，以便表示他们的聪明与大方。不久以后这已传遍全世界。来自世界各地的商人也不约而同的来到P国购买"只有聪明人才看见"的隐形衣回到他们的祖国。自此，全世界的人民已经兴起了"不穿衣服风"了。而P国王也在这场买卖生意中得到了不少利益。不出三个月时间，P国王也被全世界的人民认为是"女人的救世主"，因为全世界的色狼已经灭种了。为此，P国王得了一张金文凭，被誉为对世界最有贡献的人。

好景不常在，世界气温突然严重下降。人民纷纷购买大量的隐形衣服，准备取暖。不出三天，全世界的人民差不多全都被冻死了。现在大家才知道，他们一直以来在做着愚蠢的事。 "不穿衣服风" 在此正式结束。

..emotional perplexity..

Sometimes I feel like I’m standing on this really narrow bar stick hanging somewhere high up there, trying hard to keep balance ‘coz any mishap leads to very painful fall. Balance in family, friends, work, and personal life. I must admit that I’m damn a quiescent person who don’t really like to mix around most of the time and so personal life is so important to me. Good thing I don’t have to make commitment to relationship (yet). It actually doesn’t really matter to me, but yet it DOES matter ‘coz most of the time it won’t just affect me, but others around me as well. This equilibrium sense, not easy to describe ‘coz it cannot be seen, heard, or felt. But it’s haunting me, in a way. I guess the vestibular apparatus deep inside my inner ear is not functioning well enough?

Damn... I'm gonna fall I'm gonna fall....

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Sometimes I wonder if everyone around me will grow up to this certain age and start acting old. As in, really old, where conversations are mostly in the past tense, starting every story with introductory retrospections on past events that had taken place in that halcyon days of youth and using words like "used to", "if I was younger", "in my younger days" or "you are too young to understand" too frequently. Or even develop a liking for those newborn monstersbabies that cry too much?? Couldn’t imagine how life can possibly go on that way. Suddenly I could understand how Peter Pan feels.

あたたかい

あたたかい

Anyone with the faintest knowledge about Hiragana in Jap knows that it's pronounce as 'atatakai'. It means 'warm'. Despite the fact that I appear cold to others-- well, some of them. It's like a barrier, or rather, a protective shield I need to built up around me, in order not to get hurt.

Anyway hope that by keeping this blog, if long enough, will somehow or rather, keep the inner side of me warm. This city and this people, are getting cold.
And so as the weather.

Samui. Cold.

Okay I have to admit I'm still damn so upset and angry about the attitude of the people from MOM, ICA, and MOE. Then again of course it's the attitude of your own manager which I'm more angry at. But this is just so hilarious and I have to talk about this, short.

I told Fel about King Kong's attitude. Despite the fact that I'm also very angry with the way the government people do things. But that was ANGRY. King Kong's attitude make me feel very sad! So that's what a boss treat you after working so long time under him. (Then again not really under HIM lah). Hmph!

"Stuff banana into his mouth!! Wahahahaa"

Smsed by Fel to me.

I grinned. That was NICE! I shall photo-shop one picture about this. Wait till I get King Kong's photo yea. =)

angry

I'm utterly disappointed with the way people from MOM, ICA and MOE do things. So this is the way they do things when people always give them their praise? I went to MOE yesterday noon and I glanced at the Mission and Vision Board, hanging on the wall somewhere near the Customer Service Counter:

F = Friendliness
A = Accuracy
C = Completeness
T = Timeliness

I rolled my eyes. It seems nothing but bull shit to me. Slogan is always something nice to shout it out, nice to memorize, but always end up to be most difficult to carry out.

By the way, all of my frustration and agitation began when people from MOM went down to SST Holland Village and say want to have this 'Checking if there is anyone without appropriate pass to work'.

I frown. I admit the status I'm in is a bit awkward. I'm holding Student Pass but I've already graduated. I've been working in SST Holland Village since I was in Poly WITH Letter of Consent from SP and MOM.I guess that's the reason why the Operational Manager, King Kong, shouted, across the phone:

"What???!!! So you don't have the relevent pass in order to work? Then since you in Poly you should not be employed. Who employed you the other time? You don't get SST into any of such trouble can or not??!"

And bla bla bla. The cordless phone is not function brilliantly so I didn' get to catch what that King Kong saidshouted over the phone.

I went calling MOM later. Being accused by others over some faults I didn't make is something I can't tolerate. Get you trouble, King Kong?! Hello, wake up, *piak**piak* I got better thing to do!!

I shall update the conversation between me and MOM, ICA, MOM, ICA, and finally MOM at the later time. )or maybe not, it's too much the frustration).Oh and anyway, then I was ordered to stop work at SST "until this issue is resolve". How nice King Kong. Now I know the reasons Kat die die want to resign by her own. 'Coz she might, just like me, be ordered to stop work anytime over some ridiculous reasons!

F*** you! Stupid King Kong.

I'm browsing around and happened to see THIS which is definitely mouth-watering. Hmm I refer to the food part (ONLY). Wow how I wish I'm there. And my stomach is grumbling. Time to feed? Hehehee..

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Haiz sometimes we can't help but to feel dishearten by random conjunctures, especially by disgusting morons who flaunts their cornucopia of wealth or so-called "knowledge" redundantly. After reminiscing, it suddenly falls upon me that this is somewhat common. The rich will get richer n the poor remains poor and those stranded in the middle can hardly climb up, but any mishap will cause a painful fall. And how ironical it is that some are sipping their fancy vintage Chateau Petrus leisurely while others are only havin teh-o-ice for all of their life (or perhaps some Jacob crakers only on special occasions).. Well, this is life.

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But again I shall always be positive, just in case this is true. THIS site states that pessimism actually shuts down the immune system affecting the T cells and the NK cells.. Well nvm la at least still got the humoral immunity mahz... (haha a VERY good example of optimism indeed). But how true is that? Maybe the next time I see our scholar HHui then can ask her ba hahaa…

Alright I know it's almost 1 month I haven't been update THIS blog. So much has happened since the last day I blogged. And god know how lazy I am to do the update. Life becomes monotonous with the wake up-work-back from work-bath-sleep-wake up cycle. Alright I admit there are small little things happened around that MIGHT deserve some pin-&-point -- or maybe not? I'm just not very keen to. Guess it just that I'm so lazy. Guess it's just ME.

Now I'd be officially address as SP alumni. Yiks I hate the word alumni. It somehow reminds me of aluminium. Okie I know this 2 things got completely no connection.

Haven't been seeing some of the friends which took different courses with me in SP. Wonder will we get to see each other again, despite the fact that Singapore the country is just a small little red dot.

No offence on the last sentence. Serious.

Grad!!

Wed, 27-07-2005:: It has been N months back since I had to wake up this early, almost 6.30am just to make sure that I won’t be late for the ceremony. Okie I admit it I’m sort of excited about it. Who doesn’t? After all it’s the hard-earned paper that I will finally get after spending my 3 years of youth studying the can’t-get-a-decent-job course. Another thing is of course, to get to see and take pictures with friends/classmates that I would hardly see around nowadays. Oh yeah and my parents come. ;)

Alright I feel like bring up this a bit. Thanks JRobin for his jacket during the graduation ceremony. If wasn’t because of the jacket, my blood would most probably be freezed into ice already. And I recognized that as a very gentleman act since we were like, converse in less than 10 sentences in a whole year? Hehe.. okie to clarify it’s NOT that I have a big crush on him or something like that ok.. It’s just that, he does look like one of my cousin JJun who we would hardly talk to each other as well.

Damn it! I wonder will he try to break the ice? Shit. I’ve been buying things from Cold Storage HV branch. At this rate going, I’ll soon be very broke indeed! Hmph!

e-mail

I know I read this e-mail far too late. Yet it still not that late. Sorry think I'm a bit clueless to find the exact word to describe my feelings now.

I just read this e-mail from my friend YShin, sent on 5 Jul 2005:

"za bo... really miss u all frens ler...guess y i suddenly like tat? actually u nearly (really is nearly) cannot c me anymore liao ler. yesterday morning i go swimming then nearly drown at 1.8m there, i only 1.58m, u can imagine how panic i m. then i alone, nobody surrounding oso, straggle & straggle, tink i'll die v soon liao la, swallow alot water, nose choking oso...now i know how ppl feel when they are drown, panic until no voice come out altot like to scream help... then heng i m at lane 3, altot my hand cannot swim as usual but i try to force my legs to push me forward to lane 1 then i finally can touch the wall. really v scat, v v scat but i pretend like nothing cos if let ppl c my pale face then too lose face liao... ha... then the thing tat make me angry most is when i touch the wall and rest, i saw 2 saving persons chatting in front of me, ard 3m far away from me... THEY ARE BLIND. that's all i can say abt tat 2 fuckers... then after this experience, i keep tinking tat will u ppl sad 4 me if i really die? will my frens sad or cry 4 me? of course da pang will la, if not i'll come visit him everynight and scat him until he cry... but i tink for u all, sad abt 1 week then say some sorry phrase then will forget me alr la... those who working keep on working, those who studying keep on studying, those who dating with bf oso wont stop dating, earth still rotating, sun still rising, the 2 fuckers still chit-chatting... but i wont blame u all la, blame liao oso cannot give me back my life. but i'll become ghost and visit u when u r sleeping, eating, day dreaming... ha...ok la, just wan to tell u tis incident only, take care... :)"

I guess I almost lose another friend by this way. The water. Something similar several years back when PSze drown. What if something bad really happen to your friend around you? Will you get notify? Will someone tell you? How long will it take for the news to reach you? Of course la if that is the case he/she won't be e-mailing you telling the incident that he/she has went through. But I guess some people you loved would never get notify? The world is so small, yet so big. Darn I don't know what the hell i'm talking about now. Just leave me alone.

People who know me well enough are aware that I'm not that good in English. Both grammar and vocabulary. Reason behind is that I’m just too lazy for all those things. Memorize vocab? Sorry, count me out please. I suppose I'm not cut out for learning different languages. Recall Nicole Kidman "The Interpreter" -- I think the job is a damn great a challenge.

I guess I have a much better command of the Chinese language— both in speaking and writing. I can express myself better. Far better. And I hate to admit that ever since I came to Singapore to pursue my diploma, my Chinese level was like, drop —bling bling blong blong. Darn.

So, please bear with me if the blog entry appear to be completely or partially Mars language to you readers if I write in Chinese yea ;)

What Good Is A Heart- Code Red

I told you how I felt
I told you what it meant
But I still haven't changed your mind

I know that you're afraid,
You're frightened of the pain
But you can let down your guard

Cause when we run, we hide
We deny what's inside

What good is a heart, if you're not gonna use it?
What good is your love, if you're too scared to choose it?
If your heart is beating, then it's for a reason
If you're not even willing to start, what good is a heart?

Don't make the same mistake that people often make
And miss out on a chance for love

You've got to make your move, you've got to make it soon
Cuz you're dying inside

Cuz I'm a man, but I cry
I have fears, I won't lie

What good is a heart, if you're not gonna use it?
What good is your love, if you're too scared to choose it?
If your heart is beating, then it's for a reason
If you're not even willing to start, what good is a heart?

Come on baby, you know it
Girl anyone who looks can see that I'm right

There's a chance, we should take it
Or regret it for the rest of our lives

What good is a heart, if you're not gonna use it?
What good is your love, if you're too scared to choose it?
If your heart is beating, then it's for a reason
If you're not even willing to start, what good is a heart?

他的狂风来袭
你的倾盆大雨
以及
我的艳阳高照

Sometimes I really can't tolerate customers who think that they are always right. Though I know that my manager favaorite quote of the day is "Customers are always right". Bull shit.

Working in the "service economy" in Singapore could be pain in the asshole sometimes. And this is when I come to realise why the typical Singaporean lacks of service DNA. It's because they themselve lack of respect DNA to the so-called lower rank of jobs. And apparently waitering is one of them.

Many people think that the job consists of simple taking orders, and bringing food to the table. They don’t realize the multitasking, laborious side work and cleaning, and 10 hours shifts on your feet. I'm dare to say out loud that I'm a very good customer and very nice to the wait person. 'Coz I've been there. And apparently I don't want to be an assholic customers in the eyes of others. I'm just too nice a person I guess. Can't help. *Grinz*

Bored

It has been nearly 2 months, of waiting and of paradox. It is a short time that seems long enough, and everything, yet nothing, seems to happen. Untill now, I still cant find a decent job. Something related to what I studied. What I graduated from. And I'm getting impatient. But it is amazing that with the number of people graduating every year, the increasing population, there is still enough jobs for most of the people. Does this mean that this equation can be establish?

Number of graduates = Increased job opportunities (e.g. the building of Integrated resorts) + retirees + other environmental factors

All the rivers run into the sea, yet the sea is not full; unto the place whither the rivers go, thither they go again. (Ecclesiastes 1:7)

It appears that I am consumed by the pleasures of the everyday - good food, sleeping, reading, friendship, internet, games, the natural world - whilst never being far from the monotony and the feeling of emptiness. Deep down inside.

And apparently I have too much time to let my thought run wild.

Bored.

We the part-timer (Kat, Jess, Fel, Jae and me) went to Paragon branch to chill out and visit Brad at the same time. All of us miss her like crazy. It was not until we knew that Karen was transferred back to Holland Village branch. How interesting. People always only realise how good things have been until they lost it. Darn.

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Fall sick since Thursday night. And apparently the reason behind is lack of sleep and nutrition (I guess). People involve in service industry hardly keep their biological clock in normal pace. That is when I always sleep at 2am and wake up at 11am. I will have shorter live if this go on. And the immediate effect from the whole thing, except that I fall sick, is that people telling me I look more 'mature'. Crap. I know that equivalent to old. Just to express it in a better way. Please, I need people to be frank to me.

Mature = Dull skin tone + more visible wrinkles + always in tired state + eye bags and black eye rings

I rather be NOT that mature though. Yeah I know that I'm stepping into adulthood in 3 more days. Stop reminding me. It's not all about excitement.